From the very beginning of this new pregnancy, I kept seeing flashes of a second C-section scar. Oh no… I feared another cesarean, but I had to win the battle against fear. So, I began to counter that image by declaring my conviction according to:

“Everything is possible for the one who believes.”
“I believe, and I can give birth the way God eternally intended — naturally.”

Each time I saw that image, I repeated this verse and affirmed that I would not go through a second cesarean. I responded bravely, but deep down, I was pleading with God to help me stay firm in my conviction. I offered Him my faith, inviting Him to intervene in my life. I knew the medical reports stating that after one cesarean, the risk of another is higher. But I simply didn’t want that. I just wanted to give birth the way God had planned.

I was experiencing another very beautiful pregnancy — beautiful, strong, full of energy and gratitude, and without incident. With the experience from the previous one, I had learned the importance of resting often to make things easier for my body and to conserve strength. I was still being followed by the same midwife, and I truly wished to give birth at home. But due to my previous C-section, and based on questionable reasons, the medical team wouldn’t allow it. So, I continued the journey with my midwife in order to have someone quickly accessible and to keep a safe distance from unnecessary medical intervention.

The battle was constant in my thoughts, which were regularly under siege. I felt the intimidation, the manipulation trying to convince me that I should simply be content to have healthy children and stop insisting — stop being fussy about how they would be born. But this desire to give birth as in the original design had been nurtured and fed for a long time, and I was ready to learn whatever was necessary — as long as I could see (and experience) His glory (John 11:40).

So I asked the Lord for this favor: that once I arrived at the hospital to give birth, I would have my baby in my arms within the hour — and of course, without a cesarean. It was more of a decree than a plea. My request was simple and clear, and I firmly believed the Lord would grant it, even though I didn’t yet see how.

“Ask, and it will be given to you.” — Matthew 7:7

Quarter after quarter, I stood on the solid assurance that since the Lord was in no way opposed to my desire, I would live it out (Psalm 34:7)…

This text is an excerpt from the book “I Dreamed of Giving Birth in Peace” written by Linda KOUCHOU.

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